New place with God.

So I think I mentioned that I am reading So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore, and that there is a series on Red Hot Monogamy at church throughout April.

Yesterday I slowly ended up in a bad mood, not sure where it came from, but things just kept like they were piling on top of me.  After I got home from where ever I was with my husband I unleashed some tears and thought I should read.  I needed to catch up on reading So Long Insecurity, and this would probably help the situation that is working to put me in a deeper hole.
Still not sure how I got in this hole, but I remember the things trying to make it bigger, like my list of things to do, my lack of energy, my husband being out with the guys for the night, and the bills. 
Thank the Lord, I was at a part of the book that begins to help you find solutions.  I have been recognizing my insecurities more and realizing I also put my security in other often.  So being home alone was helpful.  I prayed a lot that night, and when tested later that evening I was able to stand firm and feel lifted by God when my insecurities would have usually washed me away.
The next morning in church, the pastor had a meesage on not letting our desires become expectations.  This went on with what I had been reading the night before.  Humans are flawed, but God loves us the same. 

We need to trust in God, for He is what is constant in our lives, and He loves us despite our flaws.  And we should not only love ourselves because God loves us, but loves others because God loves them.

Today I went on to read some more and just spend some alone time with God.  I renewed my life in Christ, and told Him I want to spend my life starting with Him every day and trusting Him to be my firm ground from which I will take on the day.  I wrote a pray for myself and hope if I don't pray it daily, I at least pray it when I need to start on new ground again.